Thursday, September 18, 2014

You Never Know How Much Good You Do

“Occasionally discouragement may darken our pathway; frustration may be a constant companion. In our ears there may sound the sophistry of Satan as he whispers, ‘you cannot save the world; your small efforts are meaningless. You haven’t time to be concerned for others. Trusting in the Lord, let us turn our heads from such falsehoods and make certain our feet are firmly planted in the path of service and our hearts and souls dedicated to follow the example of the Lord. In moments when the light of resolution dims and when the heart grows faint, we can take comfort from His promise: 
‘Be not weary in well-doing. … Out of small things proceedeth that which is great’” 

--Thomas S. Monson

Boy, I needed to be reminded of this today…I've been feeling a bit overwhelmed these past few weeks as we've been getting back into the swing of things with school starting and juggling the new schedule of responsibilities...i.e. all the nightly homework, weekly tests and then the dreaded early mornings and trying to peel little man out of bed and get him to school on time. It's insane (and infuriating at times) what schools nowadays are expecting of early elementary kiddos. So many of our children are not developmentally ready for what is being thrown at them in school and or the high stakes albeit "sit-n-get" standardized testing environment is the direct opposite of what works best for their learning styles....this is particularly true as it relates to young boys (here's a great article that speaks to this... click here).

Our little man struggles so much with ADHD and dyslexia--it's heartbreaking sometimes, and making it through a typical school day while trying to stay on top of all his assignments is a huge hurdle he must overcome each week.  We're only 4 weeks into the school year and he's already feeling overwhelmed.  Our mornings usually begin with tears because he dreads going to school and then he hates having to swallow his daily pill for his ADHD (which make his tummy hurt usually)--he then has to survive 7- hours of school.  Following that…he then pushes through an hour of tutoring 4-days a week after school. Following the tutoring, I then pick him up….we head home and begin our dreaded evenings of working to finish the endless amount of homework (which almost always ends with another round of tears as we work so hard to complete his assignments). On a typical school night, we usually spend about 2-hours (after I get Gavin and Tay-Tay to bed) finishing and reworking classwork that he couldn't finish during the school day…. mind you--this is just 2nd grade!!  Thankfully, Noah has a great teacher this year---we are so grateful for her and the care, concern and patience she exhibits with our son each day.

The hubby has been working out of state since the beginning of the month in trial on one of his big legal cases (let me tell ya...despite what television depicts in so many legal shows---the life of a trial lawyer is not glamorous at all).  We miss him so much when he has to be away like this and he is so ready to come home to us.  He's grown tired of living out of a hotel room and suitcase.  In his absence, I've been trying my best to keep everything up and running on the home front and it has been pretty exhausting.  I was thinking today how much admiration I have for single mothers.  I honestly don't know how you do it.  I'm sure it requires an endless amount of prayer and surrounding oneself with reliable friends and family who can help and support you.  Thankfully, my sweet mom and dad came down to stay with me and the kids last weekend --my dad was only able to stay a few days before heading back to work, but mom has been here all this week helping me with the kids.  She's such an angel and I'm so, so thankful for her love and support.  She's been a godsend. 

I'm also trying to balance everything with my new service calling at church as the Primary chorister.  I'm basically in charge of leading and teaching all the music for the children's Sunday school at church (ages 4 thru 11 and the nursery).  Now mind you, I am not musically inclined (I mean like NOT AT ALL).  I can't sing a tune to save my life.  I also have a real fear of getting up in front of people and then add the fact that I have to sing in front of the teachers and kids as part of this church service calling--let's just say I'm a hot mess by the end of church. Since most Sundays my husband is either at church meetings or out of town for work--trying to get all three kiddos to church on time and dressed in their nice church clothes all the while lugging around all my gear for singing time in Primary--boy--it's just been super stressful with the new calling.  I sometimes question if accepting it was the right decision. 

So when I watched this video (see above or click the link here to watch)…the message it depicted  really struck a chord in my heart   Life is just plain hard isn't it?  All of us have days where we feel so worn thin and overwhelmed by all that we have on our to-do lists.   We some times can reach a point where we start to question...What is it all really for?...Am I really making a difference?  Do I really have a purpose in all of this?  I loved how at the end of this video--the son reminded her that they needed to have family prayer (I can't tell you how many times my sweet Noah has done this with me ---when he can tell I'm worn thin and the last thing I want to do is kneel in prayer...) and then the son offers a tender prayer that illuminates for the mother all the good she had done this day--essentially put her focus back on the Savior and what is most important in this life.

If you have the time, I hope you'll watch this short video, too.

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